Faith, Life

These Four Walls (New)

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These four walls once held me bound. Kept me chained in like a bird in a cage. But these days, I’m a bird who is free. These four walls won’t keep me in because it’s not bigger than me. I will not look to myself for the resolution but the Giver of Life. My focus is no longer the walls but that which is higher than me. I will no longer allow pain, fear, hurt or hang-ups to hold me bound within these four walls. It won’t be easy but I will not bang my head against these walls and expect change. I have a choice and so do you. Choose to see and live beyond these walls.

If you’re still bound by these four walls; stop and take a listen. Listen for the sounds on the outside, listen to your beating heart and listen to the voice that speaks so softly to you and once again choose to see the beauty that these four walls can bring.

Whatever these four walls may represent for you it doesn’t have to be negative or destructive. These same walls that have held you down and back can be the walls which set you on a different path; where there once was bitterness there can be forgiveness. For sadness, it can be replaced with joy. If there was once chaos, you can have peace. You see these walls have helped me to see myself and the much-needed transformation that has begun. These four walls once held me bound, but now I am free.

Faith, health, Life, Wellness

Let’s Go into 2018 Without Fear

 

I use to make New Years resoultions, in hopes I would keep them but it really didn’t work for me. Instead of making resolutions now, I have one word that carries me through the year. This Word encompasses the whole person (spirit, soul and body) and from there I set small goals.

I awake and the year plays in my mind. What I should have done, who I should have spoken the truth to. Today I am bombarded with that. I want to walkout of 2017 unafraid. Letting go of old feelings, being honest with what I feel.

Earlier this year I was told to set aside time to write, away from home and on a particular day.  I had it all worked out in my head, but it never really materialized. The fear of  the unknown, failure and not being good enough held me back. As I look into 2018 I don’t want fear to hold me back.

I am ready to move forward. I’m excited about 2018 and what it has in store, not only for me but the people around me. I want to open myself up more to love, trust and being who The Creator intended me to be.

I know that there are still many issues that I have to work through but I’m not afraid anymore. I’m not saying it will be easy.  What I am saying is each issue that I have to walk through will allow me to learn more about myself.

It has taken me years to get to a place where I like who I am. Where the mask that I have been wearing are slowing being peeled away. My dragons are being slayed one by one. I am no longer trying to be like anyone else but just trying to be my true authentic self and the only way that can be done is by spending time with the one who created me. Who formed me in my mother’s womb and knows how many hairs I have on my head. This is something I take pleasure in and smile knowing that my heavenly Father loves me.

I’m excited about walking closer with the Lord, my marriage and what God has in store for us. The relationships with my friends and the new friendships that are yet to happen. I’m finally also ready to make time for my writing. I have a story and so do many others.  I’m going to be brave in 2018 and let my story be heard. My hope is that others will be brave with there own stories as well.

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Good Bye 2017
Faith, Life, Wellness

You’re Invited – The Invitation

The Invitation

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“Gather and Group”

I’ve been involved in a life-group for more than 2 years now.  In the beginning it was hard. I didn’t know the people. To be honest, I found being around new people quite intimidating. Having major trust issues. For most of the first year I was very guarded. I was afraid of being hurt and known.

Towards the end of year one is when I began to open up more. So within year two I was learning much more about myself within this group settting. I was able to do do this because my life-group members were very transparent, which was refreshing to me. They showed me that being yourself was just ok. There was no need for pretense.  They showed me no judgement, and because of their love and acceptance I was able to open up even more. I was becoming  a new person. I was being changed because of my groups openness, honesty, trust and transparency.
Within that second year I found myself wanting more. More of the community and love that they had shown me within the first year.  I wanted to be a part of their life and share in the joys and pains that they experienced. I wasn’t sure how this would be done but this was where I wanted to do.

One day I saw a blog post called “Row Out Wednesdays”. That is when I decided to become more intentional with my relationships within and outside of this group. It meant that I would have reach out. It meant that I would allow myself to be more vulnerable. It meant that the level of intimacy would have to be deeper. It meant that I would have to trust Jesus more than I ever have before.
This is what Jesus wants for us. To want to know him more and have a deeper relationship with Him. We thrive better within community than on our own. Our community can be a church group, family, friends or a group where you share the share the same likings with someone.

I know this will not be easy for me but I look forward to connecting with my life-group and others on a different level.