Faith, Life, Music

Mercy Me – Even If

 

As I find myself in a dark place and struggling with physical pain this songs brings me to a place of surrender and peace that It is well.

Take a listen, and read the lyrics.
They say sometimes you win some
Sometimes you lose some
And right now, right now I’m losing bad
I’ve stood on this stage night after night
Reminding the broken it’ll be alright
But right now, oh right now I just can’t
It’s easy to sing
When there’s nothing to bring me down
But what will I say
When I’m held to the flame
Like I am right now
I know You’re able and I know You can
Save through the fire with Your mighty hand
But even if You don’t
My hope is You alone
They say it only takes a little faith
To move a mountain
Well good thing
A little faith is all I have, right now
But God, when You choose
To leave mountains unmovable
Oh give me the strength to be able to sing
It is well with my soul
I know You’re able and I know You can
Save through the fire with Your mighty hand
But even if You don’t
My hope is You alone
I know the sorrow, and I know the hurt
Would all go away if You’d just say the word
But even if You don’t
My hope is You alone
You’ve been faithful, You’ve been good
All of my days
Jesus, I will cling to You
Come what may
‘Cause I know You’re able
I know You can
I know You’re able and I know You can
Save through the fire with Your mighty hand
But even if You don’t
My hope is You alone
I know the sorrow, I know the hurt
Would all go away if You’d just say the word
But even if You don’t
My hope is You alone
It is well with my soul
It is well, it is well with my soul
Faith, Life

These Four Walls (New)

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These four walls once held me bound. Kept me chained in like a bird in a cage. But these days, I’m a bird who is free. These four walls won’t keep me in because it’s not bigger than me. I will not look to myself for the resolution but the Giver of Life. My focus is no longer the walls but that which is higher than me. I will no longer allow pain, fear, hurt or hang-ups to hold me bound within these four walls. It won’t be easy but I will not bang my head against these walls and expect change. I have a choice and so do you. Choose to see and live beyond these walls.

If you’re still bound by these four walls; stop and take a listen. Listen for the sounds on the outside, listen to your beating heart and listen to the voice that speaks so softly to you and once again choose to see the beauty that these four walls can bring.

Whatever these four walls may represent for you it doesn’t have to be negative or destructive. These same walls that have held you down and back can be the walls which set you on a different path; where there once was bitterness there can be forgiveness. For sadness, it can be replaced with joy. If there was once chaos, you can have peace. You see these walls have helped me to see myself and the much-needed transformation that has begun. These four walls once held me bound, but now I am free.

Faith, Life, Scripture

Psalm 139:1

A prayer:

Lord you search me and you know me. You know all about me. There is nothing that I do or don’t do that you don’t know about. You know the thoughts I think and the words that I’m going to speak before I even say it. I am truly amazed at this.

Lord, I ask for you help. For years I wanted to know just your power, so that I could see the miracles. Please forgive me. Lord I now want to know the person of the Holy Spirit. Lord, please help me to know your spirit as a person so that you can envelop all of me.

Lord, help my unbelief in the area of being physically and spiritually whole. May my heart be turned so that it comes after you. Soften the places of my heart that have been hardened. Wash away fear, doubt, or anything that is unhealthy and let the Holy Spirit come and reside in my heart today and forever.

Let your ways be my ways. May I truly follow you. Graft me into the branch so that I may stay joined to you and that your teaching will become apart of me. Lord, thank you for hearing my prayers.

In Jesus Name, Amen.

Faith, health, Life, Wellness

Let’s Go into 2018 Without Fear

 

I use to make New Years resoultions, in hopes I would keep them but it really didn’t work for me. Instead of making resolutions now, I have one word that carries me through the year. This Word encompasses the whole person (spirit, soul and body) and from there I set small goals.

I awake and the year plays in my mind. What I should have done, who I should have spoken the truth to. Today I am bombarded with that. I want to walkout of 2017 unafraid. Letting go of old feelings, being honest with what I feel.

Earlier this year I was told to set aside time to write, away from home and on a particular day.  I had it all worked out in my head, but it never really materialized. The fear of  the unknown, failure and not being good enough held me back. As I look into 2018 I don’t want fear to hold me back.

I am ready to move forward. I’m excited about 2018 and what it has in store, not only for me but the people around me. I want to open myself up more to love, trust and being who The Creator intended me to be.

I know that there are still many issues that I have to work through but I’m not afraid anymore. I’m not saying it will be easy.  What I am saying is each issue that I have to walk through will allow me to learn more about myself.

It has taken me years to get to a place where I like who I am. Where the mask that I have been wearing are slowing being peeled away. My dragons are being slayed one by one. I am no longer trying to be like anyone else but just trying to be my true authentic self and the only way that can be done is by spending time with the one who created me. Who formed me in my mother’s womb and knows how many hairs I have on my head. This is something I take pleasure in and smile knowing that my heavenly Father loves me.

I’m excited about walking closer with the Lord, my marriage and what God has in store for us. The relationships with my friends and the new friendships that are yet to happen. I’m finally also ready to make time for my writing. I have a story and so do many others.  I’m going to be brave in 2018 and let my story be heard. My hope is that others will be brave with there own stories as well.

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Good Bye 2017