I use to make New Years resoultions, in hopes I would keep them but it really didn’t work for me. Instead of making resolutions now, I have one word that carries me through the year. This Word encompasses the whole person (spirit, soul and body) and from there I set small goals.
I awake and the year plays in my mind. What I should have done, who I should have spoken the truth to. Today I am bombarded with that. I want to walkout of 2017 unafraid. Letting go of old feelings, being honest with what I feel.
Earlier this year I was told to set aside time to write, away from home and on a particular day. I had it all worked out in my head, but it never really materialized. The fear of the unknown, failure and not being good enough held me back. As I look into 2018 I don’t want fear to hold me back.
I am ready to move forward. I’m excited about 2018 and what it has in store, not only for me but the people around me. I want to open myself up more to love, trust and being who The Creator intended me to be.
I know that there are still many issues that I have to work through but I’m not afraid anymore. I’m not saying it will be easy. What I am saying is each issue that I have to walk through will allow me to learn more about myself.
It has taken me years to get to a place where I like who I am. Where the mask that I have been wearing are slowing being peeled away. My dragons are being slayed one by one. I am no longer trying to be like anyone else but just trying to be my true authentic self and the only way that can be done is by spending time with the one who created me. Who formed me in my mother’s womb and knows how many hairs I have on my head. This is something I take pleasure in and smile knowing that my heavenly Father loves me.
I’m excited about walking closer with the Lord, my marriage and what God has in store for us. The relationships with my friends and the new friendships that are yet to happen. I’m finally also ready to make time for my writing. I have a story and so do many others. I’m going to be brave in 2018 and let my story be heard. My hope is that others will be brave with there own stories as well.